I finally got my tee shirt.  I love the art work and I think the message makes my point without being obnoxious.  

SO...I'm lazy.  That's well established.  If you want to enable my laziness (and make me happy) send me your birthday and don't make me hunt for it.  If you do I promise I'll put it on my calendar and remember it next time it rolls around.  Enable Me!  (obscure Venture Brothers reference)

My tattoo is healing well.  Starting to get kinda flaky but I understand that's better than a big hard scab.  

I'm trying to live the reason behind my tattoo...making amends where I can and letting go of past hurts and insecurities.  It's not easy and I'll probably slip.  But I'm trying and I have a built in reminder now to help.  I WILL write more about the actual experience of getting the tattoo.  Soon.

I found out some distressing news about another of my medications.  I don't "preach" about it much any more, but I live and die by my Armour thyroid medicine, literally.  It's an older medication and not one popular with doctors because the drug reps don't give them kickbacks for prescribing it like the reps for Synthroid do.  But when I started taking it several years ago I went from surviving to living, just as I went from barely alive to surviving when I was first put on Synthroid.  I will NOT go without it, even if I have to doctor shop or order from Canada to get it.  Or worse.  Whatever it takes.

So I was very unhappy to learn that Armour recently underwent a reformulation.  This was not announced and if it had been I believe I'd have heard about it, I keep up with news about thyroid treatment and Armour in particular.  It seems that quite a few patients have not done well with this new formula.  Everything from allergic type reactions to symptoms of low thyroid cropping back up and TSH levels going up.  

Guess what?  A lot of what I was blaming on my bp meds, are also symptoms I suffer when my thyroid is off.  Moodiness, depression (the only time I was ever depressed enough to feel like I needed treatment was before I started treatment for my thyroid), crying, fibromyalgia flareup, swollen feet and hands, fatigue, high blood pressure (again, once I started treatment for my thyroid I was able to come off the bp meds previously), fast heart rate etc.  

When I first read the news about the change to Armour, I literally wept.  It wasn't my fault.  I wasn't crazy.  Well, I'm crazy, but not that kind of crazy.  I had hope that I could be myself again.  I wanted to talk to the pharmacist today and see if I could substitute one of the other natural thyroid meds for Armour without a new prescription.  But after being off work for 2 days and having not 1 but 3 top priorities for the day, I just ran out of time.  I was at work until nearly 6:30 and by the time I left I was too tired to care.  I'll talk to him tomorrow and if I can't make the substitution I'll call the doctor.  *sigh*  I dread it.  I'll have to go in and explain why Armour saved my life and why I now want to stop taking it.  *facepalm*  I can do it.  I know I can.  I can get the documentation and I'm convincing when I need to be.  But it's exhausting to think about.

All right.  Enough babbling.  Warehouse 13 is off and my butt is numb from sitting still for 2 hours.  Gotta move around and try to get myself ready to go to bed.